footage taken by 李建平(Li Jian Ping) early 1998
李建平拍摄的照片1998年早期
document 9A_ email exchange, from: Li Jian Ping to: Gao Yue 
文件9_李建平和高跃之间的邮件往来
early 1998
1998年早期


Gao Yue. 20 February 1998, 2.00 a.m.
高跃 1998年2月20日2:00

I knew I would give up :) Now you know everything, you know what I'm doing. Do you understand why I didn't tell you about this before? Both the waves and the sensors are used to bring me closer to nature. Every time I'm in the office it's like I'm in touch with remote worlds, like I'm feeling things for the first time. My body reacts to these feelings in an ever-changing way, and repetition becomes hypnotic, making me reach a very intense state. That's why I'm tired, I'm not sad, I'm just exhausted. I know it's hard to understand, and you asked me "why?". I can't really tell you why, I just know that I feel my body, the world around me, with an intensity that I never thought I'd feel. Try to understand, I know you've been very shaken by what I've told you. I'm sorry if that's the case.

我早就知道我会放弃J现在你什么都知道了，我所做的一切你都知道了。你知道我之前为什么不告诉你了？声波和感应器使我向自然更近一步。每次我在研究室，都仿佛处在遥远的异世界中，仿佛第一次感知到事物一样。我的身体每次都有不同的反应，重复也如此变化多端，让我的精神高度紧张。所以我很累，我并不悲伤，我只是筋疲力尽。你问我为什么，我明白，这很难理解。我也说不出个所以然，我只知道，世界围绕着我，我用前所未有的强度感知自己的身体。试着理解我吧，我知道我跟你说的那些让你动摇了。对此我感到很遗憾。