footage taken by 李建平(Li Jian Ping) early 1998
李建平拍摄的照片1998年早期
document 22A_ email exchange, from: Li Jian Ping to: Gao Yue 
文件22A_李建平和高跃之间的邮件往来
late 2002 
2002年早期



Gao Yue. 9 December 2002, 2.10 a.m.
高跃 2002年11月9日 14：10

I know that this email will seem strange to you and maybe you won't even want to read it. I've disappeared and you've been through such difficult times that I daren't even imagine. Yesterday by chance I saw you from afar. There are many things I would like to say to you, but maybe you won't want to listen to them and I will never really be able to tell you. I'm fine, even if these years have been painful and without peace. I have never forgotten you and you will always be a part of me. Please don't try to look for me again, I can't explain why. I don't live in Beijing anymore. I have another name and another life. Just know that I won't forget you. I hope one day you can forgive me for what I did.

我知道这封信对你来说可能很奇怪，你或许甚至不愿读它。我消失了，你这段日子里受的苦，我想都不敢想。昨天我碰巧远远地看见你了。我有好多话想对你说，但你未必愿意听，而我再也不能正真说给你听。我很好，尽管这些年日子很痛苦，没有片刻安宁。我未有一刻忘记你，你永远在我心里。请你不要再找我了，我无法解释。我永远地离开北京了。我已改名换姓，过上另一种生活。只须记着，我永远不会忘记你。希望有一天你能原谅我的所作所为。